Saving Yourself

It is not always easy to forgive, especially when a part of you has been tremendously affected. It takes time to get over the anger, hate, frustration and regret. And as we struggle on our own to get rid of the negative feelings, we subconsciously seal ourselves from the outside world, cautious about falling into the same trap again. We silently demand for the sincerest apologies of the ones at fault, who in some cases, are clueless about the impact of their actions. Sometimes, hearing the word “sorry” does provide a level of relief. But it’s tough luck to actually receive it. We only have control over our own actions, not others’.

Say you have forgiven a person and moved on. Does it mean you should forget about the past? If one comes back you, and acts as if nothing happened, would you be willing to take the risk of opening up sealed wounds by discussing it, or would you just go along with the flow? Does this circumstance fall under the “some things are better left unsaid” category? How would you rebuild the trust you once had? Should you finally set ground rules, in case a déjà vu arises?

Some people tend to keep their bearings to protect themselves from re-experiencing horrors of the past. I do not blame them. For there are really those who are only there for you in good times, then flee when shit happens. I am not against believing in second chances either. We all deserve one. But no matter what our verdict is, forgiveness should always be given with all our hearts. Otherwise, who else are we fooling?